Love Live! Nishikino Maki “Sunny Day Song” SPM Figure Unboxing

Hello~!

I accidentally took too long in posting again…crap. (╬ ꒪Д꒪)ノ I’m sorry guys; I let time get the best of me again. But I’ll have two posts this week so there’s a plus! Anyways, I couple weeks ago I was able to get my hands on a wonderfully adorable figure of my Love Live! bias and I took pictures of me opening it. TA-DA.

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Ah, yes. My main bae; Nishikino Maki. The store I go to for many things Korean and Japanese started carrying LEGIT (I emphasize this because some of the stores in California carried awful fakes…) figures and goods and when I saw her, I just couldn’t walk away without her. The weeb in me was let out in full force as I rushed to the check out counter. (⁎⁍̴̀﹃ ⁍̴́⁎)♡ It was a beautiful moment.

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Let’s begin with the box and what not. The box art itself is quite cute although not entirely my aesthetic to be honest. The front of the box features the figure with Maki posed and in position. The side art features of profile view of Maki from the anime. The back of the box had information that wasn’t exactly necessary for pictures. The inside of the box had Maki nicely wrapped in bubble wrap and cardboard.

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This what she looked like after being removed from said box. If I remember correctly; assembling her took a little bit of work because although it’s literally two pieces…the holes where you insert the tags in her feet weren’t cooperating and I couldn’t get both in at the same time. HOWEVER. I somehow managed to do it and I can’t even remember how. (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

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After assembling her; I was awestruck at the amount of details. The pleats and folds are what got me the most. She’s a sturdy figure for sure which is good especially if you’re clumsy like myself. (๑•́‧̫•̀๑) I think the item I love most about her is the transparent fabric over her skirt which they did so beautifully.  It really made me love the figure just a tad more.

Overall; it was definitely worth the amount of money I spent which I recall was about $35 but I could be mistaken. If you’d like to purchase the doll, I found it on Amazon for $27! Here is the link! This is a great item for anyone who loves Love Live! or just Nishikino Maki. Definitely a good purchase. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoyed this post! Like I said; another post is on the way this week so please be on the look out. Also, I have a trip to Charleston coming up again so if you’d like to see a blog post or a vlog, please let me know in the comments down below. With that said I hope you have a wonderful rest of your week! I’ll see you next time~!!!

Thanks for Reading~! ❤
With Love,
Taylor Rae

anxiety & depression

How’s it going guys?

It’s been a really weird couple weeks with me and as promised on my Instagram account; I’m going to explain and give you guys a little heart to heart about how I am dealing with said weeks.

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Before I begin; let’s just put a wee little disclaimer that my views and thoughts on counseling and anti-depressants are that of my own. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and those expressed are mine. I appreciate your understanding.

First off; yes. I have anxiety and depression. I have known of it’s existence in my life for the last 8 years and it has taken me through some really crazy rides mentally and physically. As to what significant event caused my anxiety and/or depression…I’m unsure. Between family issues, sexual assaults, living with PCOS, and a prior lack of self confidence and worth; it’s hard to really pinpoint what triggered it into existence. I just remember feeling a sense of relief when my doctor confirmed that it was a mental illness.

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When I was first diagnosed, my anxiety attacks were at an all time high. I remember coming home crying because I despised the way I looked or I was getting so easily overwhelmed by family issues or my grades at school would drop to a B. I would cry so hard that I would hyperventilate and there were days where I would bang my head against a wall for hours hoping to knock myself unconscious or do enough damage to remove myself from the situation. The worst part is that I never documented how or what triggered these attacks…so it took me years to really track down what causes me to flip that switch from ok/happy to down/depressed/severely upset.

Recently, I have been paying a bit more attention to what triggers me. Implied or visual rape scenes in movies throw me into hyperventilation, large crowds make me nauseous or very clingy to the person I’m with, trying on clothes is a horrifying experience that causes me to cry 90% of the time, and so on.

With my depression…there really isn’t a trigger for it. Lately, I have been experiencing some really awesome highs and excitement with getting into a university, the YouTube channel, and singing on the side. But then I’ll be in my car or I’ll be laying in bed and I suddenly feel like I’m worthless or I am doing everything wrong. I start to get really emotional and this heavy weight enters my chest and I’ll end up crying for 2 hours or until I fall asleep.

In the last two weeks, I have experienced this sort of depression a total of 7 times.

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Normally when you get diagnosed for anxiety and depression, your doctor suggests a few things to help maintain or “treat” your symptoms. My doctor had given me three suggestions; antidepressants, counseling/therapy, or self-care.

When it came to antidepressants; I was very stern about not touching them. At first, my fear was becoming addicted and not being able to function without their help. I also at some point had this negative stigma towards antidepressants because of how they were portrayed to zombify you and were farmed out to everyone. Keep in mind, my views today are much different. I’ve seen antidepressants work wonders for many folks and not so great for others; I’m really using this as a last resort if I don’t see any progress with my depression and frequency of anxiety attacks.

With counseling and therapy…my biggest fear is talking about what makes me anxious or sad with someone who I’m unfamiliar with. I’ve heard people say that talking to an unbiased and neutral person helps because they’re more honest with you and will give you better results as to finding out your triggers and where your frustration stems from. This still scares me having to recollect everything that has happened but thinking about it more and more, this is probably my next step.

And finally…my adventures with self-care. This is where I am experienced; your girl has tried 101 different ways to keep herself sane and let me tell you what. I have a pretty good system going on. When I first delved into self-care, I fell heavily into relying on distractions. I would play video games until wee hours of the morning or sleep all day. Let me just say that it was not the healthiest way to live life but it worked at that time. Nowadays, I have found myself writing down what I’m feeling or being more vocal to my family or Anthony about what is going through my head. I still play video games to distract myself though not as much, but I also read or take some time to myself at a local cafe and work on things that make me like myself more like the website or the YouTube channel.

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To be honest…I’m not too sure if I am handling it in a healthy manner or not. There are days where I feel like I am doing the best I can and I keep it moving and provide myself care as needed, but there are days where I let it all come crashing down and I cry because I’m depressed and I cry because I feel like a failure because I’m depressed. It’s the epitome of an emotional roller coaster and I’m not too sure if I’m providing the best advice on how to handle it all.

At the end of the day; everyone handles themselves differently and every single person who has anxiety and/or depression and unique triggers. You may have a positive experience with anti-depressants or you feel comfortable talking to a counselor. The best advice I can give is to really evaluate what causes you to breakdown – what occurred immediately before your anxiety attack – and so on. Once you are able to do that, find an outlet. Write down anything and everything, talk to someone, something to give you some sort of release. I can’t guarantee that everything will be solved or you’ll be magically healed…but I hope it provides you some sort of relief.

I know this was a rather long post, but I felt it SO MUCH in my heart and I hope it helps you or someone you know. In terms of care, medication and so on; if you have any suggestions and recommendations, please leave a comment down below! Also, if there is any discussion, please understand that I want this to be a safe place. All comments have to be approved by me, so I hope you all will be kind and courteous to one another! Thank you all so much for reading this and I hope you have an amazing week ahead of you.

Thanks for reading~! ❤
With Love,
Taylor Rae 

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Current Favorites + December 2016 +

Hello Everyone & Happy 2017!

I’m sorry I didn’t do the “annual” new years post this year…I had sincerely thought about it but I just couldn’t get into the spirit of it. 2016 was a difficult year for me and although I tried not to let it get in the way of me blogging and filming, it did decrease my motivation substantially for a good portion of the year. But I feel that this year I will try to take better care of myself in terms of physical and mental health. But I do want to say; thank you guys so so much for spending 2016 with Simply Taylor Rae. 2017 marks my 5th year of blogging and I’m not too sure whether to celebrate or just spend the year finding my “identity” and keeping it calm. Either way; you guys ultimately kept me going and I appreciate everything you do. Thank you.

Anyways, here’s to the first post of 2017 and the many more that will follow!

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December was a really weird month for favorites; I kind of started changing my thinking and taste in many things but I still hope you all enjoy the post. By the way, please enjoy looking at my incredibly nosy doge who likes to bust in when I take pictures.

+ POKEMON SUN & MOON +
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Ya’ll know I was excited for this release and it was worth the wait entirely. Pokemon Sun and Moon have really brought about a well needed change to the franchise; instead of gyms, there are trials where you get Z-crystals rather badges. Many cute Pokemon have been introduced as well…but shiny hunting has become a pain in my butt I tell you what. Overall though, I really really loved this game and although it took me a wee bit to finish it; so so worth.

+ADIDAS SHOES+
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During our trip to California, Anthony bought me a pair of new Adidas shoes for our anniversary and I love them. They are quite comfortable to walk in and are cute for many occasions including Disney Land. We got these for a pretty good price I believe and I’d definitely suggest them. They’re quite aesthetic in my honest opinion.

+DISNEY JIM SHORE FIGURINES+
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This is kind of what began my taste change…I had originally received the Minnie figurine from a very kind coworker and I adored it. So much to the point where I bought the Marie one because I just felt the need to buy another one. They are so cute and the small ones aren’t too expensive from the Hallmark store. I’m hoping once I get another shelf from IKEA, I can go and get a bigger figurine or two.

+MY BED+
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And finally, we come to the staple of my favorites. My bed. This seems so freakin’ depressing but I have literally felt a need to stay in bed a lot more lately. I know it’s probably part of my anxiety turning into a mild depression, but it has become kind of like a safe zone for me. I want to edit in my bed, I want to watch movies…IN MY BED. I want to play my video games from the comfort of my warm bed. And my dog only wants to love me and stay for cuddles on my bed. But yes…it’s sad, but my bed is possibly the number one thing on this list. *le sigh*

And that is it for today’s post! If you have anything you’ve enjoyed during December or have any suggestions on how to celebrate 5 years with Simply Taylor Rae; please let me know in the comments down below. I hope you guys had a wonderful and safe new years and I hope you have a wonderful rest of your week. ❤

Thanks for Reading~! ❤
With Love,
Taylor Rae

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Pretty Guardians – Sailor Moon Fan Club – Make Up Lip Gloss Unboxing + Video

Hello my Lovely Pretty Guardians!

I hope you all had a very Merry Christmas yesterday! Mine was quite lovely and relaxing, thank goodness. Did you spend time with family or get some really great gifts or have any stories? I’d love to hear from you all in the comments down below! ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡

Anyways, the day after coming home from California, I went to pick up a package and was happy to see it was from Tokyo Otaku Mode which meant my Sailor Moon Fan Club package arrived!! So I did an unboxing photo shoot and video for you all. I hope you enjoy!

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The package came with a certificate featuring the official fan club card along with a member exclusive lip gloss brooch based off the original manga and Sailor Moon Crystal brooch. Needless to say; I felt even more like a Moon Princess when I opened up the package. (⺣◡⺣)♡*

WATCH THE VIDEO


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The box is incredibly gorgeous and aesthetically pleasing. It’s rather small and deceiving in terms of weight; it’s heavier than it appears which isn’t bad at all. The back has detailed information regarding the lip gloss. I’m very pleased with the packaging and have it displayed with the certificate.

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Let me tell you; I didn’t have high expectations when it came to this lip gloss. It’s not because I lack faith in the company…but rather I’ve rarely purchased make up over the internet. So when I opened the box and held the brooch, I was happily surprised at the quality. It’s quite heavy in your hands and the “jewels” look very sturdy and won’t fall out any time soon. The back is nice and clean with a tiny sticker displaying minimal information. It brings back a lot of nostalgia and happiness from my childhood of reading the manga and watching the anime.

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When opening up the brooch, you’re greeted with a lovely pastel pink colored gloss and a tiny mirror that I’d probably get little to no use out of. The lip gloss doesn’t have much a scent to it which is perfectly okay for me as I tend to have super sensitive skin. There isn’t really any tint to it also which is also fine with me. It does appear to give a very moisturized cover, so this may be appealing to those who prefer a shinier lip cover rather than matte.

Overall, I’m in love with this item. As a long time Sailor Moon fan, being a part of the Fan Club brings me so much joy and to have a chance to own items such as this is incredible and nostalgic to me. I’m thankful for the opportunity TOM brought to overseas fans to be a part of such a wonderful club. ٩(๑∂▿∂๑)۶♡

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I hope you all enjoyed today’s post! I’m hoping to have either a new year’s post or a December favorites post by next week, so please be on the look out for that on the blog. I’m also hoping to have a Christmas Haul unboxing video on the YouTube channel by tomorrow! Have a wonderful last week of 2016 and I will see you next time!

Thanks for Reading~! ❤
With Love,
Taylor Rae

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SimplyMe: back home in California

Hey everyone!

Oh wow; it’s December already. WHERE DID ALL THE TIME GO!?

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So yes, your girl traveled back to California for a week-long vacation and boy was it packed with loads of fun. It was weird being back after 9 years…even though it wasn’t the area I lived in. Honestly, I’ve never been to Los Angeles…or anywhere near it. It was honestly a culture shock much like New York was. But it was honestly so wonderful meeting Anthony’s family and reuniting with my cousin after so long. ♥(ˆ⌣ˆԅ)

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The day we left; we woke up at 3:30am…such an awful and horrible idea but we had to get ready so we could leave for the airport. We got through check-in and security rather quickly, much to my surprise so I felt the need to awaken myself with a Starbucks drink. Let me tell you; the line for Starbucks was 15 minutes longer than actually arriving and checking in and passing through security combined. But ya girl made it and got her green tea latte with Anthony claiming I experienced “First World Problems” and “Basic White Girl Syndrome.” Our flight arrived and hour and a half later and it was packed. 6 hours of awfully cramped aisles on a tiny plane, but we made it through. (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ We arrived in LAX and were picked up by Anthony’s aunt and uncle and they immediately took us to the motherland…In-N-Out Burger. The Lord has never been so good until I tasted a Double Double for the first time since I left.

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We spent our first day saying hi to Anthony’s family and grabbing food like authentic Mexican tamales and within the first 12 hours of arriving I managed to gain 10lbs. #WORTH Our 2nd day was his aunt’s birthday so we took her out and celebrated with her and did a little shopping. The 3rd day we decided to go to the Aquarium of the Pacific in Long Beach. Now, let me just say…after having gone to the Monterey Bay Aquarium…this aquarium is fairly small but it was quite cute. I absolutely adored the Jellyfish exhibits and petting Stingrays. Across the street from the Aquarium was a Bubba Gump restaurant which we ate at and it was quite delicious and I got to share my love of knowing useless trivia which included “Forrest Gump.” We then went a did a little more shopping and made our way back home. ƪ(΄◞ิ۝◟ิ‵)ʃ

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The 4th day was probably the most culturally shocking and anxiety driven day for me…we visited Santee Alley. I understand that most people probably wouldn’t be too worried about this and are considering me childish for being afraid…but when that tiny alley gets packed with people you don’t know and you’re not familiar with the area. BOY OH BOY. The anxiety goes up high. I was grabbing on to Anthony every chance I got and breathing was rather difficult. Thankfully, near the end of our experience, we stopped for a breather and grabbed some food; bacon wrapped hot dogs with pico de gallo on top and a side of chili mangoes. I don’t know how we made it out or how we got back home, but we did. With little time to rest…because Anthony’s family threw a get together since he was back in town. It was a great time with great food, but I had severe anxiety from the day and the best feeling was just sitting down and petting the family dog, Rocky.

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On the 5th day of Christma- I mean California; Anthony’s cousin took us to Little Tokyo to meet up with my cousin and her fiancé. There was anime goods galore, delicious food everywhere you turned, and just so much to take in. I couldn’t contain myself. I stopped by a cute café called HoneyMee and grabbed a green tea to warm up. My cousin’s fiancé got us 銅鑼焼き (dorayaki) and we did some shopping. And by some..I mean A LOT. For lunch, we drove to the Grand Market where there are so many different food vendors and little restaurants and it was everything dreams were made of. Since I was craving ramen, I went and ordered from Ramenhood which was all vegan if I remember correctly. It was incredible and the noodles were the perfect consistency. Sooo good. ( ᵕ̤ ‧̫̮ ᵕ̤ ) Finally, we made our way to The Last Bookstore which was so enchanting and full of wonder. If you enjoy bookstores and just sitting in the silence and reading a good book or three; this is the perfect place. We spent a lot of time here just exploring the labyrinth and art gallery. It was the end to a perfect day and I am so happy to have spent it with my cousin.

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FINALLY. Ya girl went to Disneyland and loved it. Let me explain though; I will never understand why people take their kids out of school to go to an amusement park on a Monday when we all know full and well that school is not out for Winter vacation yet. Needless to say; lines were long for just about anything. We did manage to ride on It’s A Small World and one rollercoaster…for children. But we walked around and took in the beautiful view of Disneyland during the Christmas time.

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We were able to get pictures with one character though and I am upset that I forgot to include the picture of us but it’s on social media regardless; Darth Vader. It was a short wait and so worth me embarrassing myself by asking for a selfie. After walking around Tomorrowland, we made our way to Main Street for the Christmas Parade and it was incredible and full of “AWWWWWWWWWWW.” Mickey and Minnie hit me right in the feels and the Disney Princesses…were lacking Moana, Mulan, Pocahontas, and what not which was a tad upsetting. But they did have Tiana which was lovely. When the parade was over, we went through all of the shops and bought a few souvenirs which was incredibly difficult because Disneyland is expensive and suitcase space was running out. We then left the Happiest Place on Earth and made our way to an Italian Restaurant for Pizza and Salad, then home to rest.

Our last day was just dedicated to resting and relaxing. We did go to a local mall and had an amazing dinner at the Cheesecake Factory, but it wasn’t as rushed or busy. We just wanted to gather ourselves and prep for the day of traveling to come.

All in all; our trip was amazing and full of fun and I am so thankful to Anthony’s family for inviting us and taking us in for the week. They were so incredible with their hospitality and took wonderful care of us. I am also thankful to my cousin and her fiancé for taking us around LA to the good spots and finding time in their schedule to meet up. ໒( •́ ∧ •̀ )७ I wish we didn’t have to leave so soon, but I know we’ll be back.

Anyways, that’s it for today’s post guys! I hope you all enjoyed this post and I promise, I got some more to come this month!!! IT’S FREAKIN’ CHRISTMAS AHHHHHHHH. I hope you all enjoy the week ahead and I will see you next time.

Thanks for Reading~! ❤
With Love,
Taylor Rae 

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